Our Story: A Lifetime of Love, Magic and Resilience

Hey everyone, 

As many of you may already know, my husband Tommy is fighting stage 4 stomach cancer. He was diagnosed about 18 months ago and we have been fighting like hell to keep him here with us. We have recently been asking for help as we try to make it through such a difficult time in our lives and  people have been asking about us and our family. It's a beautiful story about two star crossed kids who met and fell in love with each other very young. We where, are and will always be, each other's first and last love.

Our story is a crazy long one full of a lot of laughter and tears over that spanned very nearly 30 years.

We actually met when he was 17 and I was 13, of course I lied back then and told him I was two years older then I actually was (Judge me if you want but we've all probably do it at least once I. Our lives lol). Looking at my now 13 year old son, I look back and think "wow it doesn't feel like we were eve truly that young, and in many ways we never were. 

You see, our story is one made of both that epic Fairytale Love we all wish for, but Its unfortunately, also an epic tragedy, that none of us can even imagine going through. It's about lost and found love at first site similar to Disneys story about Jasmine & Aladin but... with a west side story twist.

A little something for any chicks staying home for Valentines day ❤️

 
Link to: Untamed by Glennon Doyleb This memoir is a powerful call to stop living for others and start trusting your own voice. It’s an energizing read about breaking free from expectations.

Or...... if you want to learn something about the Origin of Valentines day here is a book you can check out.

Link to: Blood of the Ancients: The Pagan Origins of Modern Holidays By Demetri Walsh

Valentine’s Day is widely believed to have originated from the ancient Roman pagan festival of Lupercalia. Celebrated around the Ides of February (February 15), as a fertility festival Valentine’s Day is widely believed to have originated from the ancient Roman pagan festival of Lupercalia. Celebrated around the Ides of February (February 15), this fertility festival honored the god Faunus, the she-wolf (Lupa) that nursed Romulus and Remus, and featured purification rituals. 

Not for the Faint of Heart: The Brutal Truth About Shadow Work

Shadow work & enlightenment won't help the faint of heart or weak of character, because overcoming pain and conflict is its core tent so until you  are willing to face that pain and work through it, you won't be able to truly understand it. Until you experience it or feel it, you will never truly understand how it changes the color of the world for you or what peace truly is.

If you ask how were doing, we are probably gonna lie to you.... Not because we want to but because we have to.

When friends ask how Tommy Gunnz and I are, the answers that are most often given are...

We're good! Fine. Great. Doing as well as can be expected! Oh you know, we are hanging in there!

The truth: WE ARE FUCKED!!!!

So yeah, we basically say what people want to hear because the truth sucks and the reality that we live in is hard to handle, hard to live, hard to even think about and even harder to talk about.

The truth is that there are honestly no nice words for what cancer does to you and your family.

It's not something you can truly understand until it's something you go through. Not because we don't want to reach out, not because we don't want help, not because we don't need our friends.

The truth is, it's easier to give people the answer everyone expects, because no one really wants to know the truth, the truth is just too hard and too sad and somehow inexplicably feels contagious.... Because it could be you or your loved one next, and it's too awful to think about.

I asked Grok what the cost of stomach cancer is in. The first 18 months from diagnosis.

This is what it answered below. I actually laughed and cried at the same time as I read it because for every awful thing it does say, there are a million things between each line that it doesn't.

What we don't say is that we would pay any price to save the people that we love and that, as hard and stressful as every day is or costs you all, it's also the most beautiful and precious day of our lives so far because we re still here to hold each other and cry. We are still thankful to be together. We are so thankful to have even one more morning, one more day and one more night.